Falling off the Wagon

Trying to lose weight is hard. I have been trying on and off for years to get the weight that PCOS has put on me off. I was doing pretty well last year and even started to train for a 5K and then my back went out. Which has been pretty much been the story of my life for the last 7 years since I started having back problems. I have fallen into this cycle of doing really well until my back hurts and then I retreat. I don’t want to push because I when I pushed myself when Chase was little, I ended up hospitalized and in months of therapy and pretty much helpless in my ability to take care of my family and as a stay at home mom, that’s not really an option. I try to walk that thin line of keeping going and keeping myself healthy, but have fallen into this Catch 22. I have to work out harder because if you are familiar with PCOS and insulin resistance, you have to work harder. It’s more difficult to keep the weight off and easy to put on. But if I push myself hard enough where I need to be, it’s excrutiating on my back. But if I can get the weight off, the less I weigh, the easier it will be for my back. So where does that leave me? I’ll tell you where… Sitting on the couch Monday night watching The Biggest Loser with a tray of cookies. I have officially fallen off of the wagon.

So what do you do to get yourself re-motivated? I’d love to hear your stories! Personally, I think I need Jillian Michaels as a trainer. I need someone to yell at me and get me going…Wish me luck:)